your smile, we remember...

i know her back then when i was still in college. we hung out only for a couple of times and hi-bye when we bumped into each other at malls or cafes. and since then i never really kept in touch with her but only random comments in facebook here and there. until 2 years ago. i heard that she had leukemia from my other friends and that she was actually staying in singapore for the medication. i took the initiative to send her a message from friendster, telling her that i knew about it and she could contact me anytime if she needed any help or anything. there was no reply for weeks. but finally, in which i'm very grateful for, she replied. i cant even remember what she said in the msg but we began to know each other better since then, along with yin, dennis, thing and flo.

a lot of things had happened in the past 2 years. concerns, happiness, laughters, jokes, funs, all of them. in fact, after trying to recall what we had gone through for the past 2 years, they were mostly happy things. i can still remember how loud we laughed in the middle of the night during her stay at hospital that the other patients next doors had to send a nurse to calm us down. or all those good times we'd shared at her house talking rubbish that sometimes it made us roll ourselves on the floor for laughing out loud.

i really have to admire her for being brave and positive all this while. we never treated her specially for being sick, and she carried herself well too. i even remembered that she was the one carrying my dirty plates to the sink and clean them all, or even cleaning the dining table after our dinner. sometimes we would even try to clear all the snack stocks in the cabinet. she was always bubbly, cheerful, full of updates, observant, understanding and even as a person to talk heart to heart to, especially for yin and thing, discussing about loves or whatever girly gossips that they had.

her family too has been wonderful people. her mum, her aunt, her sisters. they have been truthfully supportive to her all along. iv always told us how she felt bad about getting more attention from her mum or other people because she was sick. or having her sisters to take care of her and not the other way round. for that, she said that she had to be strong and stayed positive. learning japanese language, looking forward to study again, so on and so forth. never giving up to her illness, she lived her life as fullest as she could. but, fate speaks differently. we got a call from her mum friday early morning telling us that she was in critical condition. we rushed to hospital as fast as we could, but by the time we reached there, she was gone. we were totally in disbelief, hoping that we didnt hear what we just heard. i just talked to her on tuesday. it felt like a huge slap on my face and i was partially hoping that she would wake up and yell at me again. but it didnt happen. the next thing we knew, we were looking at her lying motionless on her bed. she was gone.

eating hilton cheese cake wont be the same again. eating bella pizza wont be the same again. eating delivery pizza wont be the same again. eating no signboard wont be the same again. eating patissier cakes wont be the same again. eating sik wai sin wont be the same again. eating chatterbox chicken rice wont be the same again. eating crystal jade fried bun wont be the same again. eating rabokgi wont be the same again. all those favorite foods of her wont taste the same again.

we'll miss her yelling at us. we'll miss exploring food with her. we'll miss discussing books and movies with her. we'll miss making sure that all the food was well cooked for we were so used to doing that when we were with her. we'll miss her loud laughter and we'll definitely miss her annoying mobile phone with lots of accessories!

we're deeply saddened by her departure, but we'll cherish all of the memories we've had. and this is from the bottom of our hearts, we're really glad that she ever walked into the path of our lives.

goodbye, Iv.